Tuesday, March 27, 2018

“Death & Love”

 
Every beginning has an end but this is not like every other story, this is a mystery, i.e. my story. Here, in the end, it begins, like when the dark cloud that blocks the sky & brings the storm And in that darkness with the rain it brings life.

On a vacation day at my sisters home, they woke me up from my evening nap with a news of the death of one of their relative. I didn’t know that person, but still like always the news about death made me uneasy. As a doctor, I work in between life & death and every time a life is lost, I feel like a bit of myself has died. I always tried to stay away from funerals, it's not just about the one that is dead but the live ones around & their vibe it's hypoxic.

So my sister and her in-laws were planning to visit them the next day. I said ok, I’ll pack and go back home. But my sis had other plans and she wasn’t gonna let me leave for a week, and I was already part of her plan for tomorrows visit though I didn’t like that plan, arguing with my dear sister is never fruitful, so I meekly agreed.


The ride was long, the car was stuffed, I survived only coz I had the book. yeah I know what you are thinking, I really did take a book to a funeral, how weird right. But u won’t feel creepy if you are a reader, coz they know that there isn’t a place that you cant a take a book too. Finally we reached the place, the funeral ceremonies were already over so it was just the relatives gathering, talking & sharing memories. For half an hour I was being introduced to my sister's relatives until there was none left to be introduced to. For a while, I lounged on the lounge in the drawing room. Then something caught my eyes like it was demanding my attention, I was flooded with curiosity, I had to at least know the name. I stood up and walked towards the corner and as I got closer It felt familiar. With a smile I read the cover “the secret of the Nagas”, Shiva trilogy, one of my favorite books and till I left that place I wasn’t bored. But my lovely sister came up with a fantastic idea of visiting the home of a family friend, while all I wanted was to get back home and sleep.

In an hour we reached their home, though we were not sure as it was our first visit to this place. We walked through the gates and a girl came out through the front door. Sis recognized the girl and confirmed the house, while the girl welcomed us in and ran back inside calling her mom. I wasn’t feeling sleepy anymore, perhaps the strong tea or was my intrusiveness to see that girl I just met, although I got only a quick look and I know she is pretty. I ended up sitting on the wrong side of the room which had a poor view of the area where the girl stood, but I did check her out as much as possible. she was slim, medium complexioned, long bushy hair, probably as tall as me, sweet voice, hardly used any ornament nor make-ups & in a simple dress. The inner me started whispering in my ears that “ shes the one”. I told the inner me to shut up, coz he says this same thing every time I meet a new girl. But unlike those times, for some reason, I wanted to agree with him now. Now he started to push me to talk to her, I couldn’t resist and I stood up suddenly and turned to her. What the hell am I  doing, she was looking straight back at me & my mind was blank. I had to speak something, and I asked her where the washroom was, yes I did ask her that & I mentally slapped myself for coming up with such a stupid line. And she is as tall as me, I did confirm it while I stood by her as showed me the way through the room.

It was getting late so we bid farewell and as we walked back to our car, I had a little smile on my face coz I know its not the end, it's just the beginning of a new story that began with the inevitable end of a life and ended up with the eternal beginning of love. And the story will continue….




"💗💗💗For my future wife, with a heart full of love that you don't know yet my sweetheart💗💗💗"

Why do most tend to take the default settings?



When we are born, almost all the things are chosen by default from religion even some parents decide their kid's profession on the day of their birth. Then they grow up in a society where there are prefixed guidelines on how to live and how not to. Even in educational institutions Mugging up is encouraged while questioning is punished. Ideas and experiences of our forefathers should be taught while at the same time they should be trained to think, to find new answers. The worst way to live our life is by default, we should customize to make the most out of it.

Love, Its probably the most simple and sensible thing. But the society doesn't share my opinion at all, to them love is strange, it's complicated. They’ll probably agree if I say love is magical coz they don’t believe in magic either.
To them even love should be practiced in default.
And anything out of the default is unnatural. But what they should know is that love is meant to be unnatural, unconditional & unrealistic, its fucking unexplainable. It's like the big bang theory, where everything came out of explosion from nothing. Love is never available by default, it can only be customized. And if u ever find such in default conditions, then you can be sure it's a fake one.
Till date no one could define or explain love, all they could do was tell us how each felt it. Love, for every single being, its different in their own ways.
² love doesn’t always need to be towards living being, it could be for words like readers and writers, or for arts, sports, even science.
² love doesn't have to be just towards a single person, like parents who love all their kids alike.
² it doesn't need to be towards a single species or race or age or gender, like leaders, soldiers, and doctors who risk their lives for the love of humanity.
² Finally love could be even towards oneself, who find completeness and freedom in themselves and want to live on their own.


But all these, in reality, are the rarity in this society, I pity.



I have fallen in love with a woman, older than me in experience & age. She is beautiful from her smile to her passion, from her words to her thoughts, from her heart to her acts.
Do I know her well? No, I hardly do but I would love to learn.
Is it lust & sexual? No its admiration for the curves of her lips, not her hips.
Is to make her mine? No, she is a blazing flame of spirit, a furious wind of ambitions, a mountain of thoughts. I would like to have a closer look, just to feel such aspiring life not to capture & cage.

Then what do I actually need? the cup of coffee that I was offered :)




Dedicated to the Pretty Poet